TAKE A LESSON ; TAKE TIME

We can only give what we are and not what we would like to be. Many of times i have told myself that but overall i am still changing. Why at this period, is it because i am moving on to a new phase of life. Why is it that i try to shun people now? Why is it i never dare to be as open as i use to? why is it that i no longer can keep my positive thinking in check? Why have i been so negative, selfish and angry? why have i been so impulsive, so unable to forgive, so full of pride, so filled with terror and so afraid of others views on me? Who am I now? I question myself. Is it me and who i want to be? Are my smiles just a facade? why do i start keeping things to myself? Where have Zelia been? I want her back.... I want her back in my life.

To that girl, to err is human, to forgive takes restraint. Recently, someone ask me what do i think of you now? seriously i don't know. I don't know why am i petty why am i unable to open up to you once again. Is it the fear?
A book told me:
Wash what is dirty
Water what is dry
Heal what is wonderful
Warm what is cold.
Guide what goes off the road
And love the people who are the least lovable,
because they need it the most.

 i don't want to suffer for three years. i'll try.
                    

27/03/10 Third of the five(:

IT'S BELICIA LIM CHICHI'S BIRTHDAY!

@ PASIR RIS PARK.

TADAH! Birthday girl~!

whoa okay where do i start. well we started in the late afternoon. We meet up at Carl's junior @ jurong point to "stall time" *winks* we sat in there for like 4 hours? Gosh it was long! But it was well worth it. It's been long since 5 of us sat down and have a good chat about our lives. Laura no worries we will always be here to hear your worries and help you(: Belicia don't keep things to yourself our phones are always available. Yings don't want to drift away from you though your in jc. Wai we are the only one that seem to be free from all the woes but glad your doing fine~ continue with my story. at around 5.30 pm we made our way to the mrt station. In the train we BLINDFOLDED THE POOR BIRTHDAY GIRL! SHE WAS BLIND FOLDED FOR MORE THAN AN HOUR!  well it was because the train trip was from one end to another and plus we got lost at downtown xD haha! sorry girl! But afterthat it was well. She was happy with the surprise we had install for her(:

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN BELICIA :D

Special Thanks to Aaron, MingHao and Norman for making their way down.

Special Thanks to Shawn and Linus for the party and waiting for us for so long.

Just being random, but I mean it.

I realized, we have to be damn STRAIGHTFORWARD to put across a point unless it is to a girl, just like me. Irony is I am not that straightforward in this post....:p

A lil thoughts for myself to reflect on, once again

When people, things and everything i treasure slowly disappear in my life. I tend to gain new and stronger bonds. I may have lost many best friends, friends and aqquaintance for the past years. They come and go, they take a lil memories of us together but never a continuous bond. I was really happy yesterday when i finally got the ring to a great friendship, a stronger friendship, our friendship. Look like a threesome, well we are. Thank you girls, you guys made my day. Life is short, no point brooding over all the sad past but open up the heart for new beginnings. Think optimistic. Shall not be sad for long anymore(:

Dear grandma, don't feel guilty or blame yourself for asking me to treat you to lunch. I ought to do so. Why didn't i ask? I am supposed to be the one that is guilty and i am. Well I feel happy that you enjoyed lunch today(: Hope that your operation on Monday will be successful. I want to see you well again.

Contentment in the heart(:

Today i am one watch and one blade richer:D I finally got the blades i have been waiting for for so long. THANKYOU TO GLADYS AND FARYDAH FOR FOLLOWING ME ALL THE WAY TO ECP.

Btw the watch is so pretty, i am so lucky my previous watch spoilt otherwise i wouldn't bear to get this:D

can't wait for another outing with my two sisters:D

PS: Fary congrats on the birth of your baby hamsters and remember to upload the photos:D

18/03/10 Another day for POSH brownies~

KIDNAPPERRRRRR!:D Went to Plaza Sing today with waiwai~,Laura,Yings, belicia, shawn and linus today to watch KIDDNAPPPPERRR!(: The show is awesome. So touching! i teared, so did laura! we got laughed at =.- but waiwai~ practically cried~ sensitive wai~ HAHA! Which means i'm hinting you guys to go watch it!:D beware! To angmo-ish people~ it's in chinese:D

ps: I'll post the pictures up on FB(: as requested.....tmr

haha! *DROOLS* HE IS HAWTTTTTTTT!:D

*PIAK* *TSK TSK* Stop daydreaming ZELIA!!!! ;B

This week is crazy! I am only gonna work for a day and the rest and just plain fun with friends!!!!! yay!~
but i'm not earning cash! shiatttt LALALALALAL~

The Thankful Princess:D

To GAY PRINCE:D,
                                  Thank you so much for the post.Sorry for reading it so late. Been working hard at ritz xD. I have learnt to forgive and forget. No longer sad nor angry:D But i was suprised. Am i that nice? i doubt so. But thanks for the praise. No worries i will look after deon. My cute lil darling;D you don't know how much i agree with you. People there are really great. I hope it goes on. No worries. The princess will stay fine and happy:D see you soon(:

08/03/10

I went to watch Alice in wonderland 3D with BELICIA and WAIWAI~ well many commented that the movie was ridiculous but i find it wonderful I LOVE THE MOVIE. But what really ruined part of the movie is that Mia Wasikowska(Alice) isn't really a good actress. Maybe without enough experience. But as usual Johnny Depp(Mad Hatter) was awesome(: My favourite~ Helena Boham Carter(red queen) funny woman. Made me laugh a lot while watching the movie. Anne Hathaway(white queen) So pretty xD haha. But she walks like she floats... so gentle.... remind me of someone! scary! Matt Lucas(tweedledee/tweedledum) haha the guy from little britain! So funny and cute as ever. Aw man i love the show. NEED THE DVD!!!!!!!!!
This day was the day which make me happy yet regretful. I guess i have not been shopping for too long....:/ crazy shopping before and after the movie and made me spend 400++ close to 500. ): shiok feeling but thinking that i couldn't actually stop myself and i have just spent 5 days of my tiring workdays. Super sad... zzzz don't want to be a SHOPAHOLIC): Have to control.... self control!

27/02/10-28/02/10 A GET TOGETHER:D

Whoa finally a time to blog. Apart from work the most recent event i had was the chalet. Had loads of fun but somehow there were hiccupps alongthe way... got too emotional. Well as many of my friends know, i don't really cry and don't really like crying but i did somehow. Shall not go into details.. but i believe some of you already know the reason. Well plain to say, this time my anger turned into sadness and because i kept it all bottled up and i had no other way of expressing it. I cried. Well it was embarrassing but i felt better. Thanks guys for being there for me during that moment. It's true that it wasn't worth it but i just had to let it out.
Thank you Pancake and Queenie for the wonderful planning.
Thank you Eve for being there for me the whole time when i was down
Thank you Euginia for being crazy with me
Thank you happy prince and Gay prince for listening to me and giving me advice
Thank you robert for the advices and stitch... cheer up dude
Thank you Andy for being thoughtful and caring as a big brother
Thank you others who made the chalet worthwhile:D
Time to be back at work at ritz tmr.. for today it shall be a resting day.

不用担心。我会开心的。我很感谢你所送我的娃娃。我会好好的珍稀它。不会让你白白做我的快乐王子。因为我是chopsticks公主吗！谢谢你哪天的陪伴。^^