I FEEL DAMN SHITTY, DAMN CRAPPY, DAMN WTF AND DAMN ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

CAN'T POST THIS ANYWHERE ELSE BUT HERE. OTHERWISE PEOPLE WILL SAY I AM ALL SO EMOTIONAL! DAMN!

There is always a downside for everything

Honestly, you make me speechless.

But i am telling myself to stay positive and don't be disappointed.

Please don't make me, _______

OMG! I LOVE REALISTIC FLOOR PAINTING!:DDDDDDD

I'll see Sunshine through that lil peephole i have on my door.

Three years ago it happened.
A thing in the past;
I'll never learn.
Just when you know you fall so deeply inside,
it's wrong,
ignorance made you blind.
When truth finally hits you hard,
you stop short,
it's misery.

You'll suffer, to get bliss.

I'm afraid, because this time it's me once again.

Words. it's deceptive.

smile and move on.

No more tears, my dear.

Do all you can to let it pass.

My soul and my body.

Current playlist:  Rascal Flatts
I so love Gary LeVox voice.

I'm moving on- Rascal Flatts
I've dealt with my ghost and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame trapped in the past for too long

I'm moving on

I lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different, but they are always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They will never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong

I'm moving on

I'm moving on and last I can see
Life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there are no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's' life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind, that those days are gone

I've sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should, but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me some where down this road

I'm moving on

I'm moving on

I'm moving on

I'm moving on.


 Here comes goodbye- Rascal Flatts 
I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow, nothings on her radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought Id see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride

But here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed(d)
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye


Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you're left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye

Oh-oh-oh-oh


Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye 


Every four seconds someone ask- why?


Stand
You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless, like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright, you'll be alright

?Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend ?til you break
?Cause it's all you can take

On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, then you stand

Life's like a novel with the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon with only one way down
Take what you're given before it's gone
And start holdin' on, keep holdin' on

?Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend ?til you break
?Cause it's all you can take

On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, yeah, then you stand

Every time you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place, yeah

?Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend ?til you break
?Cause it's all you can take

Yeah, then you stand
Yeah, baby
Woo hoo, woo hoo
Woo hoo, woo hoo
Then you stand, yeah yeah

When it's all said and done, i seek inner peace.

It's been two years, finally i lost control once again.
Honestly, never felt so upset since i don't know when.
It's a total different sadness.
What got into me. I'm unsure.
Distracted;
overwhelmed by sadness, i cried.
I swear this is so not a good time,
the next two weeks is good,

I'll make myself, myself again.
Sorry for all the misery.
Silently, I expected too much of myself and you.

I really miss my clique, my two fatties G and F and my Kss team. 

I needa you guys. You create my smile.

okay haven't been Blogging much nowdays but hell yea here is a random post!:D

I SO WANT TO GO TO JAPAN NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

and the reason is......

TO GET THIS STITCH PLUSH!!!!!!!!

LOL!:D

HAHA! Well I do have crazy thoughts sometimes :x

Need some distractions from MST!
So yea going back to studayyyyyyy now~ D:

WHAT IS DISC?! ZELIA!

EVERYDAY IS SUCH A DRAG!!!!!

Honestly if you ask me, i think i am screwed. Everyone seem to be doing well, why am I not? I cant seem to put everything together like before. I can't manage my time with my studies, my fun, my friends and my family at all. To much pressure? Someone asked. But I don't think so. It's the same. Paranoid? maybe? workload seems to pile higher each week. Each project seem to be more demanding as it reaches the dateline. A distraction? pretty much a maybe? Feel like a FCUK-TARD. Gosh, i have been complaining of not being able to complete my work and being too tired. My friends have been asking me why do i always not turn up for gatherings. My mom have been asking me why haven't i been resting well recently. I asked myself why haven't i had much fun since start of term. zzzz Got to find a way!

POSITIVITY~ LOL!

OUCH:/

MY DEARIES, ITS JUST A WRONG THINKING.

I SHALL PUT A STOP TO IT. 

A LOSING TOUCH.

Can't believe i just made that decision.... 

so fast so swift....

tomorrow shall be the day that decides. 

No more looking back.

If I am in, it's goodbye to my passion, my friend.

But i will find you once again in my future. 

My Basketball life. 

I promise.

DECISIONS, I HATE THAT.........

Stop messing around in my head!
HOMEWORK! RAHHHHH!!!!!!

That little thought of mine is ticking once again.
i HATE IT WHEN YOUR RIGHT SOMEHOW..:/

IT'S STUCK!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8PGmYymhwI&feature=PlayList&p=A8EB18C0667DE2CD&playnext_from=PL&playnext=1&index=29

THIS IS THE LINK TO THE SONG I AM CURRENTLY HOOKED ON TO. OMG! SO NICEEEEE~

TONIGHT I WANNA CRY BY KEITH URBAN.

verse 1:
Alone in this house again tonight
I've got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

chorus:
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with my pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

verse 2:
Would it help if i turned the sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

chorus
Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with my pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry......

chorus
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with this pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry......