If you have sleepless nights... what would you think of to pass your time?
These nights i have been thinking and i realised i have understood myself a little more than before.
I asked myself, why is it that i lost that feeling, that feeling of love.
It is not for a particular person but everyone around me.
The love for my lover,be it in the future, the warm and happy feeling i would get looking at his eyes. My heart beating furiously, wanting more from him, doing more for him.
The love for my friends, to care for them, be for them at all times, to take the initiative, to think of them first.
The love for my family,wanting the best for everyone.
I cannot seem to find it, feel it anymore.
i want it back but i can't seem to. why? A constant question for now.
Am i selfish? too affected? too tired?
i finally understood and found the answer. I am indeed tired, too tired to care. I am indeed selfish cause i'm willing to let go of that positive thinking to protect my self interest. Lastly, i haven't had that particular feeling of love for long, when i want it back, it won't come back.
Silly me....