ZELIAAAA's LIFE?

2010-09-09T15:53:00.000+08:00

I FEEL DAMN SHITTY, DAMN CRAPPY, DAMN WTF AND DAMN ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

CAN'T POST THIS ANYWHERE ELSE BUT HERE. OTHERWISE PEOPLE WILL SAY I AM ALL SO EMOTIONAL! DAMN!

There is always a downside for everything

2010-08-06T00:15:00.000+08:00

Honestly, you make me speechless.

But i am telling myself to stay positive and don't be disappointed.

Please don't make me, _______

2010-06-30T14:42:00.000+08:00

OMG! I LOVE REALISTIC FLOOR PAINTING!:DDDDDDD

I'll see Sunshine through that lil peephole i have on my door.

2010-06-10T18:50:00.009+08:00

Three years ago it happened.
A thing in the past;
I'll never learn.
Just when you know you fall so deeply inside,
it's wrong,
ignorance made you blind.
When truth finally hits you hard,
you stop short,
it's misery.

You'll suffer, to get bliss.

I'm afraid, because this time it's me once again.

Words. it's deceptive.

smile and move on.

No more tears, my dear.

Do all you can to let it pass.

My soul and my body.

Current playlist: Rascal Flatts
I so love Gary LeVox voice.

I'm moving on- Rascal Flatts
I've dealt with my ghost and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame trapped in the past for too long

I'm moving on

I lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different, but they are always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They will never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong

I'm moving on

I'm moving on and last I can see
Life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there are no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's' life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind, that those days are gone

I've sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should, but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me some where down this road

I'm moving on

I'm moving on

I'm moving on

I'm moving on.

Here comes goodbye- Rascal Flatts
I can hear the truck tires coming up the gravel road
And its not like her to drive that slow, nothings on her radio
Footsteps on the front porch, I hear my doorbell
She usually comes right in, now I can tell

Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

I can hear her say I love you like it was yesterday
And I can see it written on her face that she had never felt this way
One day I thought Id see her with her daddy by her side
And violins would play here comes the bride

But here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear Im gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed(d)
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

Why does it have to go from good to gone?
Before the lights turn on, yeah and you're left alone
All alone, but here comes goodbye

Oh-oh-oh-oh

Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time
Here comes the start of every sleepless night
The first of every tear I'm gonna cry
Here comes the pain, Here comes me wishing things had never changed
And she was right here in my arms tonight, but here comes goodbye

Every four seconds someone ask- why?

Stand
You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless, like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright, you'll be alright

?Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend ?til you break
?Cause it's all you can take

On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, then you stand

Life's like a novel with the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon with only one way down
Take what you're given before it's gone
And start holdin' on, keep holdin' on

?Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend ?til you break
?Cause it's all you can take

On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, yeah, then you stand

Every time you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place, yeah

?Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend ?til you break
?Cause it's all you can take

Yeah, then you stand
Yeah, baby
Woo hoo, woo hoo
Woo hoo, woo hoo
Then you stand, yeah yeah

When it's all said and done, i seek inner peace.

2010-06-09T23:45:00.006+08:00

It's been two years, finally i lost control once again.
Honestly, never felt so upset since i don't know when.
It's a total different sadness.
What got into me. I'm unsure.
Distracted;
overwhelmed by sadness, i cried.
I swear this is so not a good time,
the next two weeks is good,

I'll make myself, myself again.
Sorry for all the misery.
Silently, I expected too much of myself and you.

I really miss my clique, my two fatties G and F and my Kss team.

I needa you guys. You create my smile.

2010-06-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

okay haven't been Blogging much nowdays but hell yea here is a random post!:D

I SO WANT TO GO TO JAPAN NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and the reason is......

TO GET THIS STITCH PLUSH!!!!!!!!

LOL!:D

HAHA! Well I do have crazy thoughts sometimes :x

Need some distractions from MST!
So yea going back to studayyyyyyy now~ D:

WHAT IS DISC?! ZELIA!

2010-05-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

EVERYDAY IS SUCH A DRAG!!!!!

Honestly if you ask me, i think i am screwed. Everyone seem to be doing well, why am I not? I cant seem to put everything together like before. I can't manage my time with my studies, my fun, my friends and my family at all. To much pressure? Someone asked. But I don't think so. It's the same. Paranoid? maybe? workload seems to pile higher each week. Each project seem to be more demanding as it reaches the dateline. A distraction? pretty much a maybe? Feel like a FCUK-TARD. Gosh, i have been complaining of not being able to complete my work and being too tired. My friends have been asking me why do i always not turn up for gatherings. My mom have been asking me why haven't i been resting well recently. I asked myself why haven't i had much fun since start of term. zzzz Got to find a way!

POSITIVITY~ LOL!

2010-05-06T23:14:00.001+08:00

OUCH:/

MY DEARIES, ITS JUST A WRONG THINKING.

I SHALL PUT A STOP TO IT.

A LOSING TOUCH.

2010-05-04T19:19:00.003+08:00

Can't believe i just made that decision....

so fast so swift....

tomorrow shall be the day that decides.

No more looking back.

If I am in, it's goodbye to my passion, my friend.

But i will find you once again in my future.

My Basketball life.

I promise.

DECISIONS, I HATE THAT.........

Stop messing around in my head!
HOMEWORK! RAHHHHH!!!!!!

That little thought of mine is ticking once again.
i HATE IT WHEN YOUR RIGHT SOMEHOW..:/

IT'S STUCK!

2010-04-24T15:25:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8PGmYymhwI&feature=PlayList&p=A8EB18C0667DE2CD&playnext_from=PL&playnext=1&index=29

THIS IS THE LINK TO THE SONG I AM CURRENTLY HOOKED ON TO. OMG! SO NICEEEEE~

TONIGHT I WANNA CRY BY KEITH URBAN.

verse 1:
Alone in this house again tonight
I've got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

chorus:
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with my pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

verse 2:
Would it help if i turned the sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

chorus
Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with my pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry......

chorus
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I've thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To Hell with this pride let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry......

A NEW START, A NEW BEGINNING.

2010-04-23T21:50:00.003+08:00

OMG! 2010 IS NOT SUCH A BAD YEAR AFTER ALL! After all the shit for three month i finally see more luck coming my way~ *HAPPY*
The month of April is simply AWESOME! Because school have started! A plus plus to everything i have a super AWESOME class and AWESOME lecturers. WHOOHOOOOOOOO~ so lets introduce my class! :D

DEPM 1A/05!!!!!!!!:D

To top it all up! I would like to congratulate My juniors for making our goal that we failed to accomplish in the four years my team and I tried to achieve in Kranji. Finally you girls did it! We inally reached the top 4 in west zones! OMG! LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS. We are never top 6 but top 4 omg!!!! HAPPY HAPPY!:D Sorry for not being able to be there for any matches due to clash of timings with my classes. But i will support you guys spiritually!:D All the best for the vying of 3rd and 4th position! We can get the third! i know we can! JIAYOU!:D

A bad way to end this post would be an emo para. Damn but i have to say something, really really need to say..... I WILL NOT FALL BACK TO THAT BOTTOMLESS PIT I FELL INTO A FEW YEARS BACK. I must not. I will not.

STAY RANDOM AND HAPPY PEOPLE!!!!!!!~

TEEHEE :D

2010-04-12T19:05:00.000+08:00

You made me fall in love with you all over again.

The warmth you make me feel within.

The smile i give when i see you.

The urge to find you.

oh my, YELLOW. Welcome back into my life :D

haha this is retarded. xD

but someone said my blog is too emo.

so yea lets give it a little love to my lil emo blog. (:

But a promise is a promise, I'll try.

2010-04-10T15:25:00.001+08:00

HOW DOES IT FEEL LIKE TO BE ME?.... I WONDER.

the only way is to never spend my day alone doing nothing.
no matter how tiring I spend everyday, I will push on.

THE REASONS FOR MY HAPPINESS IN LIFE.

2010-04-06T11:49:00.001+08:00

NIAAAAAA! THANKS FOR ALL THE GREAT TIME AT WORK! I will miss you loads for the whole of next week when i cannot see you at work! Do cheer up yea? When your troubled, all you have to do is to dial the magical 8 digits, LIAAAAA will be there(: keep in touch!:D

TO MY CLIQUE, SORRY GUYS. Guess i have really been missing out alot on our life together. Sorry for being the crazy workaholic. Hope when sch starts everything will go back to normal. I do miss you guys.

Crazy birds! We haven't been out together for a long time! miss you guys huh):

TAKE A LESSON ; TAKE TIME

2010-03-29T22:32:00.003+08:00

We can only give what we are and not what we would like to be. Many of times i have told myself that but overall i am still changing. Why at this period, is it because i am moving on to a new phase of life. Why is it that i try to shun people now? Why is it i never dare to be as open as i use to? why is it that i no longer can keep my positive thinking in check? Why have i been so negative, selfish and angry? why have i been so impulsive, so unable to forgive, so full of pride, so filled with terror and so afraid of others views on me? Who am I now? I question myself. Is it me and who i want to be? Are my smiles just a facade? why do i start keeping things to myself? Where have Zelia been? I want her back.... I want her back in my life.

To that girl, to err is human, to forgive takes restraint. Recently, someone ask me what do i think of you now? seriously i don't know. I don't know why am i petty why am i unable to open up to you once again. Is it the fear?
A book told me:
Wash what is dirty
Water what is dry
Heal what is wonderful
Warm what is cold.
Guide what goes off the road
And love the people who are the least lovable,
because they need it the most.

i don't want to suffer for three years. i'll try.

27/03/10 Third of the five(:

2010-03-29T21:53:00.002+08:00

IT'S BELICIA LIM CHICHI'S BIRTHDAY!

@ PASIR RIS PARK.

TADAH! Birthday girl~!

whoa okay where do i start. well we started in the late afternoon. We meet up at Carl's junior @ jurong point to "stall time" *winks* we sat in there for like 4 hours? Gosh it was long! But it was well worth it. It's been long since 5 of us sat down and have a good chat about our lives. Laura no worries we will always be here to hear your worries and help you(: Belicia don't keep things to yourself our phones are always available. Yings don't want to drift away from you though your in jc. Wai we are the only one that seem to be free from all the woes but glad your doing fine~ continue with my story. at around 5.30 pm we made our way to the mrt station. In the train we BLINDFOLDED THE POOR BIRTHDAY GIRL! SHE WAS BLIND FOLDED FOR MORE THAN AN HOUR! well it was because the train trip was from one end to another and plus we got lost at downtown xD haha! sorry girl! But afterthat it was well. She was happy with the surprise we had install for her(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN BELICIA :D

Special Thanks to Aaron, MingHao and Norman for making their way down.

Special Thanks to Shawn and Linus for the party and waiting for us for so long.

Just being random, but I mean it.

2010-03-22T23:36:00.001+08:00

I realized, we have to be damn STRAIGHTFORWARD to put across a point unless it is to a girl, just like me. Irony is I am not that straightforward in this post....:p

A lil thoughts for myself to reflect on, once again

2010-03-20T15:22:00.005+08:00

When people, things and everything i treasure slowly disappear in my life. I tend to gain new and stronger bonds. I may have lost many best friends, friends and aqquaintance for the past years. They come and go, they take a lil memories of us together but never a continuous bond. I was really happy yesterday when i finally got the ring to a great friendship, a stronger friendship, our friendship. Look like a threesome, well we are. Thank you girls, you guys made my day. Life is short, no point brooding over all the sad past but open up the heart for new beginnings. Think optimistic. Shall not be sad for long anymore(:

Dear grandma, don't feel guilty or blame yourself for asking me to treat you to lunch. I ought to do so. Why didn't i ask? I am supposed to be the one that is guilty and i am. Well I feel happy that you enjoyed lunch today(: Hope that your operation on Monday will be successful. I want to see you well again.

Contentment in the heart(:

2010-03-19T22:00:00.000+08:00

Today i am one watch and one blade richer:D I finally got the blades i have been waiting for for so long. THANKYOU TO GLADYS AND FARYDAH FOR FOLLOWING ME ALL THE WAY TO ECP.

Btw the watch is so pretty, i am so lucky my previous watch spoilt otherwise i wouldn't bear to get this:D

can't wait for another outing with my two sisters:D

PS: Fary congrats on the birth of your baby hamsters and remember to upload the photos:D

18/03/10 Another day for POSH brownies~

2010-03-19T00:26:00.001+08:00

KIDNAPPERRRRRR!:D Went to Plaza Sing today with waiwai~,Laura,Yings, belicia, shawn and linus today to watch KIDDNAPPPPERRR!(: The show is awesome. So touching! i teared, so did laura! we got laughed at =.- but waiwai~ practically cried~ sensitive wai~ HAHA! Which means i'm hinting you guys to go watch it!:D beware! To angmo-ish people~ it's in chinese:D

ps: I'll post the pictures up on FB(: as requested.....tmr

2010-03-15T17:26:00.000+08:00

haha! *DROOLS* HE IS HAWTTTTTTTT!:D

*PIAK* *TSK TSK* Stop daydreaming ZELIA!!!! ;B

This week is crazy! I am only gonna work for a day and the rest and just plain fun with friends!!!!! yay!~
but i'm not earning cash! shiatttt ~~LALALALALAL~~~

The Thankful Princess:D

2010-03-12T22:07:00.001+08:00

To GAY PRINCE:D,
Thank you so much for the post.Sorry for reading it so late. Been working hard at ritz xD. I have learnt to forgive and forget. No longer sad nor angry:D But i was suprised. Am i that nice? i doubt so. But thanks for the praise. No worries i will look after deon. My cute lil darling;D you don't know how much i agree with you. People there are really great. I hope it goes on. No worries. The princess will stay fine and happy:D see you soon(:

08/03/10

I went to watch Alice in wonderland 3D with BELICIA and WAIWAI~ well many commented that the movie was ridiculous but i find it wonderful I LOVE THE MOVIE. But what really ruined part of the movie is that Mia Wasikowska(Alice) isn't really a good actress. Maybe without enough experience. But as usual Johnny Depp(Mad Hatter) was awesome(: My favourite~ Helena Boham Carter(red queen) funny woman. Made me laugh a lot while watching the movie. Anne Hathaway(white queen) So pretty xD haha. But she walks like she floats... so gentle.... remind me of someone! scary! Matt Lucas(tweedledee/tweedledum) haha the guy from little britain! So funny and cute as ever. Aw man i love the show. NEED THE DVD!!!!!!!!!
This day was the day which make me happy yet regretful. I guess i have not been shopping for too long....:/ crazy shopping before and after the movie and made me spend 400++ close to 500. ): shiok feeling but thinking that i couldn't actually stop myself and i have just spent 5 days of my tiring workdays. Super sad... zzzz don't want to be a ~~SHOPAHOLIC~~): Have to control.... self control!

27/02/10-28/02/10 A GET TOGETHER:D

2010-03-06T13:14:00.006+08:00

Whoa finally a time to blog. Apart from work the most recent event i had was the chalet. Had loads of fun but somehow there were hiccupps alongthe way... got too emotional. Well as many of my friends know, i don't really cry and don't really like crying but i did somehow. Shall not go into details.. but i believe some of you already know the reason. Well plain to say, this time my anger turned into sadness and because i kept it all bottled up and i had no other way of expressing it. I cried. Well it was embarrassing but i felt better. Thanks guys for being there for me during that moment. It's true that it wasn't worth it but i just had to let it out.
Thank you Pancake and Queenie for the wonderful planning.
Thank you Eve for being there for me the whole time when i was down
Thank you Euginia for being crazy with me
Thank you happy prince and Gay prince for listening to me and giving me advice
Thank you robert for the advices and stitch... cheer up dude
Thank you Andy for being thoughtful and caring as a big brother
Thank you others who made the chalet worthwhile:D
Time to be back at work at ritz tmr.. for today it shall be a resting day.

不用担心。我会开心的。我很感谢你所送我的娃娃。我会好好的珍稀它。不会让你白白做我的快乐王子。因为我是chopsticks公主吗！谢谢你哪天的陪伴。^^

EDDDMUND just for you(:

2010-02-21T23:51:00.002+08:00

OMG THIS IS MY THIRD POST OF THE DAY! well it covers up for the next week(:
THIS POST IS REQUESTED BY EDMUND OOI! So i am being very nice by posting something about him! HAHA! you crazy boy! Don't emo for the sake of her righto? Not worth it. heh don't so xin luan everything will be alright! Be strong boy! i know you can do it!:D I DEMAND FOR THE CRAZY EDDDD TO BE BACK! :D haha JIAYOUJIAYOU for your planning for the trip!:D
i have nothing to say liao!): does this cover up for not leaving a tag on your blog?

7th day of new year(:

2010-02-21T20:34:00.011+08:00

Yesterday, was another break for me from work. I had like three events for that day. In the morning i went to coach house to bainian and catch up with my teamates and crazy girls:D For a few years we will always go to jiao lian house for our annual popiah wrapping session. This year was just as great and the popiah was the best! haha thanks jiao lian mummy!:D

group photo with jiaolian, wongwong, crazy grads, kss c girls and wrs boys

crazy grads with wongwong and the bee!

this shows that we are crazy

it's not complimenting but i like it!:D

buck tooth signature!:D

me crazy-ing about. i ruined the wonderful pig picture):

As usual i had many unglam pictures.

[only one, too lazy to post]

but my dear fangxiang was there to pei me unglam!:D

After BeeBee's house me, fangxiang and zy went to Brandon's house to meet with the ssc. LOL! It was rather late when we reached. Ah i saw rachel again! :D It grew fast! haha as usual new year is a time to gamble! Well i started out with no luck at all. LOSING MONEY! But my *zhao cai gou* came along! Daniel.c came to sit beside me and all of a sudden i started winning. I had BANBAN AND BLACKJACKS!:D Then bo wei joined in to sit beside Dan.c and guess what his luck was just as good! Dan.c you make a good *zhao cai gou* xD haha but we sucked up his luck. He wasn't that lucky! Haha it was sad we didn't have a picture together. It was difficult for everyone to gather together. well next time maybe?

Ps: zhao cai gou is just a joke don't get offended huh Dan.c :D

I left Brandy's house early as i have to go to my san gu's house to bainian:D It was interesting! Our yu sheng is not just any usual yusheng. IT IS MADE UP OF LETTUCE AND FRUITS! HAHA! But it was good! So special! But i forgot to take a photo of it): haha then we went down to the coffee shop for dinner. Because my san gu ran out of time to cook for 20 over people! I LOVE SALTED EGG PRAWNS!:D I swear it is damn good! After dinner we had a big family photos and individual family photos. I haven't get the pictures yet. But i hope i do! We started gambling again. It was a short duration but i was happy with my earnings:D I got a total of $12.20. It isn't alot but i'm satisfied. Didn't expect luck to be with me. HAHA!

This year's Cny was a good Cny. At the beginning i didn't have the Cny spirit at all. Kindda down. So it made me happy again. i started posting photos too. it's been long since i post photos on blogs so i must! and i think i am suffering from minor STM!:o Been forgetting things that i just did and i went to do it all over again. sigh!

Sunday 14/02: today is a good break for me. I have been out everyday since last week. So today i decided to stay home to chill. I realise that i don't get the shiok feeling of slacking at home anymore. I think i have been out too much. And staying home to rest just bores me. The only shiok resting time i have is when i lie on the bed to sleep! OH NO! this a pathetic! i use to enjoy alone time at home): zzzzz nvmm tmr i will start working from nmorning to morning again for 5 days let's hope i will survive!:D

btw i did a quiz on fb. kind of true.

Get to know yourself better

Dear Zelia Kaulitz, below are your Personality Tests result:

Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. [wah... totally true.]

Your view on yourself:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are intelligent [but too lazy:p]

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Honest [need a white lie somehow]

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Sweet [lol not really]

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are friendly to everybody

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Don't like conflict

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Because you're so cheerful

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Fun people are naturally attracted to you

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Like to talk to you

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with [very true, i'm very picky, have to stay cautious, not easy to trust you know ;)]

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person

The seriousness of your love:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are very serious about relationships

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :If you meet the right person

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You will fall deeply

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Beautifully in love

Your views on education:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Education is very important in life

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You want to study hard

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Learn as much as you can

The right job for you:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You're a practical person

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Will choose a secure job with a steady income [not really, i need a fun job, an everchanging job]

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Knowing what you like to do is important

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Find a regular job doing just that

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You'll be set for life

How do you view success:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are afraid of failure

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you fail

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous

What are you most afraid of:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are concerned about your image

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :The way others see you

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people

2010-02-21T14:38:00.000+08:00

Zelia just realised that her blog have been so dead and dull):
no more pictures and nothing about happy stuff.... zzzzzz

STAY HAPPY AND ALIVE PEOPLE! DON'T BE LIKE ME! D:

miss my clique...): haven't been hanging out for quite some time):

2010-02-10T22:19:00.000+08:00

What we spent years building may have just ended a month ago. Though you didn't say anything but it was obvious. The trip have not made our friendship stronger but weaker. Maybe for the past four years the friendship have been twindling. We have not been as close as ten years ago cause we both let it go. When i don't know you that much anymore, we live on the memory of knowing each other. Thinkning we know each other well enough, but sadly it has changed. You are a changed person, so am I. But it seems like both of us cannot accept the fact that we both have changed. I tried giving in, taking more initiative but it doesn't seem to work. So all i have to say is i take it as a goodbye. No longer close friends but more of an aquaintance. Sorry. I'm just too tired to bother.

HAPPINESS FROM LIFE

Give me a mind that is not bored

That does not whimper,whine or sigh;

don't let me worry overmuch about the fussy thing called 'I'.

Give me a sense of humour, lord,

give me grace to see a joke,

to get some happiness from life

and pass it on to other folks.

-illuminations

2010-01-31T03:30:00.000+08:00

Been working at Ritz-carlton for the month of january. Wow seriously i would say i have learnt quite some stuff.settings of tables,ushering,balancing food and drink on trays! [this is damn tough!], working on heels, decorations of the halls. The people there are really nice(: oh i love wedding dinners! So sweet and so nice! But i seriously hate those stupid guest that are so freaking impatient. They demand for alot of things and expect us to get it asap and fast! Gosh! get a life people! your time is precious ours is precious too. There are eight course meals and portioning involved, throw in refils for drinks. Very demanding man people!AND NOW I SERIOUSLY HATE TAITAIs! gosh! pampered old bitches! JUST GO BANG THE WALL AND DIE! For now i only like the decorations, setting up of ballrooms and other friends i have met there. Otherwise this job... is not easy and not so much of a pleasure and all.

2010-01-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it is kind of sad to just sit there, watch and shout with all my might but not able to do anything else. I see people who have worked so hard to throw their chances away. Sometimes i ask, why it turned out like that? Somehow i found out the real answer. But it is an answer that will deeply aggrevate the situation. We know the ans, to why everything has failed, yet our comments and thoughts cannot be known. To my dear juniors don't give up hope. look forward. there are two more games i know you all can do it. If nobody believes in you guys anymore, there is still us. YOUR SENIORS. jiayou.

For the first time i was speechless... just didn't feel like saying anything. because i felt so.....****** for them....

2010-01-17T00:42:00.000+08:00

haha! ZELIA WANTS TO THANK YSABEL, BELICIA,YIYING AND LASTLY LAURA FOR A GREAT BIRTHDAY SURPRISE TODAY!:D haha they appeared at my house in the morning to surprise me with my brother's help. But ysabel sort of gave it away! haha! They told me to meet them at 2.30 pm but today morning before they came ysabel accidentaly leaked out that they were coming over! haha! i had to act surprise! It was so funny! haha I received presents from them! SO FREAKING HAPPY! we played games, the usual, pictionary, bridge, i never and questions. LOL freaking fun. The best part was that our forfeits is to drink BEER! omg! seriously! i am not a fan of beer. But for fun i drank! HAHA! gosh, it was just shiok i guess. if i am right we finished ten pins of beer! Not alot but at least not as bad as SOMEONE! xD HAHA! i CUT MY CAKE AND BLALBLABLA THEN went down to sauna after that and chat by the poolside. It may not be an outing but it was really enjoyable thanks guys! LOVE YOU GUYS!:D

TO KSS BASKETBALL GIRLS,COACH AND ALL THE TEACHERS. Thank you for the surprise i had on thu! I really didn't expect the surprise. I was so happy i cried! thanks man! haha and thanks coach and ms wong for the present once again!:D

TO OTHER FRIENDS WHO WISHED MY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!:D

2010-01-14T10:57:00.000+08:00

When given a choice to get to appeal into a good jc. Everyone would take the chance and without hesitation, they would agree. I was very tempted as well to go. Great teachers, great school environment, good influencial. It is the best anyone could get. But sadly, i would be a small fish living in a big fish bowl. Having a double digit R5 what am i to compete with those single digit people in the school. Everyday i have to mug so hard, just to stay in the school. Just for me to cope in a prestigous school. When i can get into poly, put in the equal effort and still get into uni. I would be happier, my parents would not haave to worry i can't cope well..... so in the end i guess poly is the best for me. Finally i can get a good night sleep without thinking so much.

2010-01-10T21:55:00.000+08:00

JUDGEMENT DAY.... the day many dread or many awaits. It decides ones future, decides one person's next level of education. JC OR POLY? i have been very troubled by this question for a very long time. People choose jc for an easier path to uni, some really love the course, some do it because of their parents, some do it cause of pride, some do it because they do not know or want to choose their career path early. Everyone have got their reasons. I heard many. Like many I am tempted to go jc and just mug to get into uni. But somehow, i found this course i really like in poly, but like i said my whole life i have been regretting. For now i am sure i will work very hard no matter how tiring and stressful the course will make me. No matter how tired i am i will continue on and when i get my results it will be damn fufilling. But is this what i really want for my future prospect? Will i live to regret. Many say look forward and just take a step. But i'm so undecisive. After tmr i only have 4 hours to consider my choices. I know i will still be very troubled between both. ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-10T17:02:00.000+08:00

Went to watch avartar in 3-D with laura and roy. Overall it is really great. No idea why alot people didn't enjoy it. We had alot fun in the theatre before the movie starts. but seriously the 3-D glasses was giving me and roy a terrible time. It keep on dropping so we have to press it against our brows. Somehow Laura managed to keep her 3-D glasses on the entire time. How lucky.

Tmr will be results day. Like everyone, it's getting on my nerves as well. FREAKING SCARY! damn can't really imagine it is really tmr though. For the past one week i have been having nightmares of seriously 20 points! That is really bad. I dreamt of my reaction, people's reaction, how will the atmosphere be like. OMG! It is really horrendous. Gosh. so i decided last week. Instead of getting very emotional tmr. I'm going to rush off to work immediately after results. Not going to celebrate or anything. Got to use work to clear my head of the results first before settling down to think about my choices for my future education the next day. PRAY HARD PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!:D

2010-01-09T20:16:00.000+08:00

Back from hk~ have been there for like 2 and a half weeks. I was reluctant to leave yet reluctant to stay as well. So fussy! xD haha!

Hongkong is seriously more fun and happening than Singapore. It is so much bigger and there are loads of things to do. Can't seem to get bored at any place. The fashion there is really good. There are wide variety of clothings to choose from. Shopping there is really an enjoyment. Secondly, the food there is superb, but still a little too oily. otherwise it will be perfect. Thirdly, cute and hot looking guys are almost everywhere. haha kind of bimbotic but it's true! But traffic there is rather congested and everywhere is crowded. So i wasn't really used to it. I went to mongkok alone, wow it was really a good experience. I manage to see how they buy goods and their everyday life. But i had a hard time travelling on feet. There are so many people that i was pushed around most of the time and some of them just bang into me when i walk pass them. I had to keep apologising.

I really enjoyed my trip thanks to Aly's dad and Sydney(: They were there to bring us around hongkong. I had my best christmas and 2010 countdown ever. I celebrated christmas eve on a one night cruise. There were christmas performance on the cruise and i had a great time exploring the ship. But i was really tired during the trip. haha cause i was unwell. puked one hour before christmas. Managed to survive the countdown to christmas, after partying for an hour, i couldn't take it and couldn't spend the night celebrating. 2010 countdown was at Tsim Sha Tsui at a restaurant. Me and aly had the countdown on a pavement and on that pavement we could see the night scenes of Hongkong. It is practically a night city. The scene is stunning:D When the countdown begin it was really hilarious. Everyone was really loud during the countdown 10..9...8...7...6...5 haha. 5 was funny. Because to pronouce 5 everyone have to say "mmmmm" so all the no is really loud but when it comes to 5 it was really soft. I didn't know why is it so funny. We laughed out loud and loads of people stare. *embarrassed* At 12 midnight there was fireworks on all the tall buildings. There is even one building that have 2010 printed on the entire building. That was cool. But the fireworks displays are much better in Singapore. In Hongkong it can be seen from a wide perspective though. so boh have their good points. when we went back to the restaurant, it was 'turned' into a pub.... and i got semi drunk again. The feeling was like clubbing. Whoa freaking fun. Thanks 'kor kor' Sonny and Sydney for my stay there. Really thank you! :D

But nonetheless, i was happy to be back on my sunny island! I was very homesick! I missed my parents a lot on the trip. I miss my crazy friends back here. Hongkong was fun. But i was rather lonely. [ Aly i was happy for having you there with me] But i really miss my other friends, the crazy things we do, the serious bitching we have. My basketball. So i wanted to come back badly. I also miss the food here. Been back for 4 days and these days i have been chionging the local food here... chicken rice, char kuay teow, nasi lemak, curry chicken.. and so on. Wow i love Singapore food. Can't live without them, too used to it!:D

PS: Aly thanks for the trip. Sorry for upsetting you somehow.

2009-12-29T21:25:00.000+08:00

If you have sleepless nights... what would you think of to pass your time?
These nights i have been thinking and i realised i have understood myself a little more than before.
I asked myself, why is it that i lost that feeling, that feeling of love.
It is not for a particular person but everyone around me.
The love for my lover,be it in the future, the warm and happy feeling i would get looking at his eyes. My heart beating furiously, wanting more from him, doing more for him.
The love for my friends, to care for them, be for them at all times, to take the initiative, to think of them first.
The love for my family,wanting the best for everyone.
I cannot seem to find it, feel it anymore.
i want it back but i can't seem to. why? A constant question for now.
Am i selfish? too affected? too tired?
i finally understood and found the answer. I am indeed tired, too tired to care. I am indeed selfish cause i'm willing to let go of that positive thinking to protect my self interest. Lastly, i haven't had that particular feeling of love for long, when i want it back, it won't come back.
Silly me....

2009-12-29T01:39:00.000+08:00

OCEAN PARK IS THE BOMB!!!!!!!!!:D

TOTALLY LOVE THE PLACE!

okay... not really for the games but more of the decors. The only game i enjoyed was the abyss. GOSH! i can sit that for consecutive times if i could! haha. yea about the decor! There are loads of PANDA stuff! LOADS AND LOADS OF PANDA STUFF! i totally cannot decide what to get at the shops. i want everything they have to offer! i rather be dead than leave that place! okay... to far fetched. But it is PANDA-ISH i would say! love it:D

oh ya i seriously need to comment about CHINA people. Not discriminating them. But seriously i feel like slapping SOME CHINA people faces! argh! They are freaking rude, like taking advantages, LOVE cutting queues, inconsiderate bastards and bitches, louded then 10 loudspeakers. Seriously! damned! Can't take these people! They need manners! Slap them! *piak piak piak!*

2009-12-26T00:02:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE:D

whoa to start of, i would say this christmas for me would be one of the worse but also one of the best.

It is good cause i get to countdown for christmas on a cruise. My first time!:D

It is bad cause i vomited an hour before christmas, so right after countdown i went to sleep. NO such thing as the 'night is young' for me):

on christmas day(today) had to stayhome no enojoyment at all. crap man):

hope i will get better tmr! i want to SHOP!:D

2009-12-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

BACK FROM CLASS CHALET! It's sad that it ended so fast regretted not taking more photos. Super shack now. Just want to say thanks guys. I hope we have it again another time!:D photos up on FB i guess yings got more photos.

2009-11-27T20:30:00.000+08:00

Been busy these days. Prom ended. So did basketball camp. I realised i didn't have enough sleep for this entire week and was damn tired during the day. But one thing was sure, it was worth the sacrifice! I HAD DAMM ALOT OF FUN!

Prom was great, there was a lot of catching up. Somehow i agree with ysabel that I didn't have the feeling that everything will end just like that. Hence not really emotional. Just feel it was a great time spent together with all sec 4s(: I'll post photos on facebook(:

Basketball camp was even better. I realised my stamina have dropped and my knees really hurt badly! Gosh! But i still had fun:D Thanks to Ms Wong for organising the whole camp and other teachers for being there too(: Coach for the crazy time we had! MY team mates that are graduating, I'll miss you guys. To my juniors thanks for the gifts and the ah-siao videos(: All the best for west zone next year(: [photos on facebook soon... i guess]

okay i'm a lil lazy to blog already(:

2009-11-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

TODAY

It was supposed to our one day tour but the stupid rain ruined everything. So in the end we have to go around vivo. It was still fun(: i want to thanks her man. Without sleep yesterday she still can have such a crazy time with me(: Hey poh can't wait for the trip man:D See you soon(:

stay HAPPY(:

i like the astronaut theme in toys R us(:

2009-11-19T21:46:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY

i went to the science centre with my bro(: We visited the new exhibition THE BODY WORLD. Seriously it is damm interesting. It is amazing how they can preserve each part of the body so well. Seriously you all should go and see if you haven't(:[ too bad i can't take any photos in there]

After visiting the body world we went to the science centre to play and took loads of photos(:

>>>>

bro trying to cool(:
yay! YELLOW TELEPHONE!:D

The fridge is damn cute!(:

The real life one is really disgusting.

somehow they draw the germs a little too cute :/

I'M MUSCULAR!:D

I'M BONY!

They have real ice there(:

mosaic picture of me(:

mosaic bro:D

Is this a terapin?

I like black hamsters the most. I don't know why.

They have cockroach):

The chick is about to hatch(:

ain't they cute(:

i find the effects cool(:

twist(:

my handprint(:

bro's handprint

wall-e :D

i like this art piece it is about apollo 11 falling into the sea i guess(:

this is a computer image of how i will look like at about 50 to 60 years old):

don't really look like my baby times though....

yellow tang(:

pufferfish(:

eel(:

2009-11-19T21:34:00.000+08:00

HEY PEEPS!:D FINALLY I BLOGGED!

i am so happy that o levels is over.. yet a lil worried... don't have a good feeling about it this time. It's different from prelims):

But nvm(: for now i am going to stay positive and play till i drop.

going to shop, look for job and i am flying of with ALYSSA to HongKong in December:D

YAY~

this whole week and during the o levels period i still had some fun but too lazy to post so i am going to post the latest(:

2009-08-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

okay... haven't been updating for long.... real long. But i guess this be the last post i will post before o levels end. Basically, i have really stressed up due to the DEADLINE! which is like one and half month away! damn! My life have been so boring and tiring. so yea let sum up what i hae done since july.... which is nothing interesting.

I have only one major event which happen during national day celerbration. I had leaders day. It was really fun! CAMWHORED like mad but the passing down was seriously dissapointing. Because of the stupid H1N1 we only had 100 spectators. WTF! Like nobody even care? Well nvm i'm not going to complain. That day i handed down my captain post to my dear AH PENG(: looking at her seriously remind me of myself back then. Seriously time flies, now i'm already graduating? I will miss school somehow.....[miracle]. To ah peng(: i have told you what i wanted to le(: ALL THE BEST! You can do it de!:D

From july to now... i have been doing my art faithfully everyday and i'm still not done with it. I guess i'm really bad with time management or i'm a really slow worker. But today i was really happy i finally finish one canvas and i'm left with 2 more. WHOOTS!:D luckily i had all my base colour on so i will chiong and finish it next week! JIAYOU!:D

TIll it's over this shall be my last post(:

PS: paiseh couldn't upload the pictures for leaders day.... blogger and facebook don't seem to allow me to upload them ):

2009-07-28T20:26:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY I EXPERIENCE DOING THINGS WITHOUT PALMS.... IT'S HORRIBLE...):
i fell down during PE today. i grazed my knees yet my palms... deep abrasions):
GOSH HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE WITHOUT MY PALMS! ):
QUICKLY HEAL! But to think of it... my fingers will gain more muscles!:D okay lame...B)

2009-07-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

LOOKING AT THESE PICTURES IT JUST MAKES ME LAUGH!:D

But seriously these pictures are of great help... because i was feeling rather upset these days. My life isn't getting any better, but it has worsen. Not only studies is affecting me, but so many things[private] have happened around me. It is draining all my energy. Yet i think about my friends, they wouldn't want me to be sad right... and i have to stay happy, smile and pretend things never happen. ARGH DAMN IT! SMILE AND LET GO! I CAN DO IT! JIAYOU!

2009-07-19T19:05:00.000+08:00

CELEBRATED GRANDMA'S 81st BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY(:
We had dinner at SAKURA, which is situated at Clementi park. Let me tell you, the cake [shown in the picture] is freaking creamy and chocolatey. Damn felt so fat after eating it.

But the best part is.... THE SALMON WAS DAMN FRESH! DAMN FREAKING GOOD! :D

As for today... Alyssa came over to study. Well, not really studying in the end. We went down to the pool to slack and had so much fun. Told her all my problems and i now i feel better. The funniest part is when this guy suddenly appeared by the poolside. His hair is seriously smooth and silky man! it's like the far best hair i have even seen. AND IT'S ON A MAN! OMG! He seriously should go advertise for shampoo ads! But what made us laugh was when we started imagining him in an ad! damn funny! But here are some photos to share.

she drew this on my whiteboard. so sweet right?(:

oh ya! She let me try this bubblegum that her friend bought from canada. It's good! And i realised it's the bubblegum i have always wanted to try since primary school. I once saw it in an ad in the Archie comic when i read it. It really taste better than those in Malaysia:D

PS: This labixiaoxin in coach's car is freaking cute. When there is solar energy it shakes side to side. IT HAS SEXY UNDERPANTS!:D

PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER:D

2009-07-18T12:51:00.000+08:00

WATCHED HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE YESTERDAY :D It was good, i give it a four star. I guess reading the book is better than watching it though. The movie left out alot of details, damn alot of details! I'd advice people to read the first few books before watching. If not you will be completely lost in the movie.... xD just like GLADYS!

Speaking about Gladys, we had damn alot of fun yesterday. We went early to cineleisure to get tickets for the movie, before belicia,waiwai and yings arrive. As we arrived early, we walked around had lunch at koufu then we did our work. But in the end, the waiting was too boring so we decided to take neoprints. WE WENT TOTALLY CRAZY LA! SCREAMING LIKE MAD INSIDE THE MACHINE. We laminated one of the photos and it's super unglam!

TADAH! The unglam photo. We didn't have enough time to choose the picture we wanted to laminate la!): so in the end the machine took the 1st photo we took..... but at least we will laugh at it whenever we are sad! It's not that bad! :D

we wanted this photo to be laminated instead... but it's too late ):

After all the fun, bel,wai and yings arrived. Then we went to watch the movie. After the movie we went mad again. Waiwai said something that i find so true! she said: "The night scenery in orchard road is damn freaking good!" You know why? Because the number of hot guys in orchard at night is always the best! :D OMG! i sound like a bimbo! But who cares :D We had a lot fun entertaining ourselves too. Reached home at about 11pm(:

PS: GLADYS SEAH! I CAN STILL REMEMBER THE KNOCK YOU GAVE ME IN THE THEATRE!!!!!!

But today was rather upsetting too): I couldn't get the tickets to go go and watch KOBE BRYANT): DAMN! It's like fully taken): I WANTED TO SEE HIM SO BADLY): Hai so no fate. But damn you coach! you get to see! must let me know how is it like okay!? :D

2009-07-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS ONE OF THE BEST FRIDAYS I EVER HAD.

Firstly, i didn't fall asleep in an action movie! WHOOTS!

TRANSFORMER IS DAMN FREAKING GOOD. NOT BECAUSE OF MEGAN FOX BUT THE ENTIRE PLOT AND THE VISUAL EFFECTS. OMG~ FEEL LIKE WATCHING IT AGAIN! AND I'M SO IN LOVE WITH BUMBLEBEE :D

SECONDLY, i FINALLY get to play BASKETBALL TODAY! :DDDDDDDDD

Though it was only for half an hour but it was great! I STILL GOT MY FEEL~ OHYEA (:

The feeling is great stepping into the court once again, re-live every moment, do some tricks and running... IT WAS GREAT MAN.... DAMN MISS TRAININGS ):

Alyssa came over for dinner tonight too. Cooked for her today(: And she loved it! :D WHOOHOO:D ohoh! I taught her how to play basketball too. When she came over, she went to the court to look for me. When she walked in she said ' oh man! i don't like basketball.' I didn't know why i just gave a pass to her immediately and told her to try to shoot some hoops. Taught her how to do it(: she had fun and she walked out of the court thinking 'Hey actually it's fun!'(:

It's heartwarming to know that another person view on Basketball have changed(: IT"S JUST GREAT:D

And to poh! I'm still waiting for your good news!:D

2009-07-07T18:59:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!! CHINESE O LEVELS ORALS IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

actually i don't know whether i should be happy or sad man. I got a feeling i screwed things up yet i got a feeling i'm gonna do ok. DAMNED I HATE WAITING FOR RESULTS! But i was lucky the topic for conversation today was easy yet it's of no interest to me at all!!!!!!! WTH! PLASTIC SURGERY! Never even thought about it before. Luckily i read up on Michael Jackson the day before and did a little reseach on plastic surgery. IF NOT I WILL BE SO DAMN DEAD!

IT"S OVER BUT PRELIMS 1 IS CURRENTLY ONGOING! MORE OF STUDYING):

2009-07-05T15:20:00.000+08:00

OMG! NBA superstar Kobe Bryant will be in Singapore on July 22 as part of his six-city tour!

YAY! DAMN HAPPY!:D

2009-07-03T22:58:00.000+08:00

WHOOHOO! YAY! I COMPLETED MY PAPER WALLET WITH ALY TODAY(: I SCANNED THE PHOTOS FROM THE FILMS AS WELL.

personally, this is my favourite photo(:

PHOTOS OF MY WALLET(:

THE FRONTTHE INSIDE

THE INSIDE CLOSE UP

THE OTHER SIDE(:
SORT OF A FLAP

but sad thing is the pink hand button came off today):
trying to fix it man!

<u>OTHERS

SIMILIAR? NAH! :D

WITHOUT SPECS

WITH SPECS:D

actually i wanted to post a series of quirky photos we took but aly refused!
so ... yea couldn't post it! But they are definitely FUNNY!:D

2009-06-30T19:33:00.000+08:00

oh man... just yesterday i was so excited to go to school.

Yet today.... it's only the second day i feel so sians and tired already.

STUDYING! the one word to describe everyday. morning till evening. night till late night.

whoa... never felt so restless before!

worse part is IT'S THE FREAKING CHINESE O LEVELS ORAL NEXT WEEK!

oh man, i have a hard time expressing myself even when i know the things to say.....

sigh, sad to say i received the news from our chinese HOD THAT I MAY/ MOST LIKELY! HAVE TO RETAKE PAPER 1 AND PAPER 2 CHINESE AGAIN):

freaking sad!): worked so hard for it yet due to carelessness and being so nervous that day

everything went down the drain.....

MY GOSH! I FREAKING WANT TO KNOW THE RESULTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-06-27T21:45:00.001+08:00

MY DEAR GIRL...
Everybody is feeling upset and angry because of you and it's not about him but YOU!
yesterday you ask me to answer your question honestly ' whether i do not care about the friendship anymore' instead of wanting to reply.. i really have nothing to say.
Because in the 1st place did i ever said i wanted to let go of our friendship?
In the 1st place if i want to 4get about it why do i still feel angry?
why do i still feel sad about it?
what gave you the idea i am going to forget about everything?
didn't i say i only wanted to talk to you on monday?
you ask us why we are not understanding... ask yourself, why are we angry? not just because you're weak. not because he is not good.
IT ABOUT YOU MY DEAR!
but hey! i will stop here because i don't want to speak or say anything anymore. Because it's not worth my time and it won't change.....

2009-06-27T17:32:00.000+08:00

26/06/09

WENT TO THE FLYER TODAY. KINDDA ROMANTIC BECAUSE I SPENT 30 MINS WITH MY........DEAR.....BELICIA :P HAHA! OUR DEAR WAIWAI REFUSES TO GO UP WITH US. SO ME AND BEL WENT FOR IT FIRST THING IN THE MORNING. BEFORE GOING SHOPPING WITH WAI. IT WASN'T BORING AT ALL DURING THE WHOLE 30 MINS IN THE FLYER, SO WAI IT'S SO SAD YOU MISSED IT! SHOPPING WAS GREAT! LOADS TO SEE. AND TAITAI BEL BOUGHT ALOTALOTALOT OF STUFF MAN! WHILE ME AND WAI......let's not talk about it xD enjoy the pictures!:D

CAMWHORING SESSION!

THE GIRL THAT REFUSES TO GO ON THE FLYER
BIMBOO~

OH MONKEY~ I LOVE YOU xD

BFF FOREVER~

IT TASTE GOOD! [JOKING!:D]

HAIR AD

TRYING TO ACT CUTE~

MR AND MRS SMITH BIMBO VERSION~

THE EXACT OPPOSITE

SPACE SHUTTLE!I'M TALL

DANCER SEH

LOOKS WRONG!

WHAT'S THERE?
PHOTOS TAKEN FROM THE FLYER

MODEL FOR FUTURE IR

OUR TICKETS

GOOD PHOTOGRAPY BY BELICIA

[i was force to say this!]

look like a bird to me..... i have no idea why....

marina barrage

no comments....

bel loves esplanade

my finishing photo(:

2009-06-27T17:07:00.000+08:00

25/o6/09

Went out with alyssa to look for custom made dresses but sadly the shop was closed so we went to bras basah. she bought films for her instax mini and we took 3 photos together. shall upload when i scan it into the com(: went to a total of three places: plaza sing, bugis and brasbasah. We had goreng pisang from the temp market at bugis! It's like one of the best la! :D and i bought POSH BROWNIES!(: YAY!:D *damm happy*

At the end of the day, alyssa agreed to teach me how to make paper wallet(: shall upload once i'm done with it! LOVE YOU ALYSSA POH! B)

CAMWHORING!~

<U>SOME OTHER RANDOM PHOTOS

HOLES~

the new bugis shopping mall: iluma
my god it has a 4 storeys high escalator! :O

[count the storeys yourself(:]

spiral stairs at bugis!

personal favourite!:D

BECAUSE IT'S YELLOW!

2009-06-19T18:13:00.000+08:00

19/06/09, FRIDAY...
This is the day when i lost it, my attitude, my confidence, my thinking and MY FAITH.
ALL IT TOOK WAS A SENTENCE..."hey you need to go borrow some painting books."
and that hit me real hard... i lost it...i feel lousy, i feel useless, i feel insulted, i can't think like how i use to, i can't face it in a positive way and it affected my mood badly. How i wish i could reply. 'hey, maybe i should, it's good for me thanks!' But somehow i couldn't say it. Instead, i cried. Hey but it's not that sentence fault entirely, i guess it's everything.

"walao, art so easy de! just need to paint"
"art so easy de ma, that's why it's the last class"
But to those people out there that think it is so easy.... you should try doing it yourself.
Get an A for o levels before making this sort of statement.

people tell me that it is a stupid decision to take art because i have to work so hard for it. Whereas unlike talented people who can draw paint easily. This is where people misunderstands, even talents put in hard work to make a good art piece. My friends ask me whether i regretted taking art. to tell you the truth.. i do at times because it's tough and i feel like giving up. But deep down i don't, art is a wonderful thing, i love doing it. I may not do it well but hey at least i'm enjoying it.

So to those people out there that do not understand how we are feeling, what we do, please don't judge. Some things you people say are really ******* irritating.

PS: Thanks brandon for cheering me up and being by my side(:

2009-06-10T22:14:00.000+08:00

It was just a simple sentence.... she said it so easily yet it affected me more than what she meant to say.

FAMILY HAPPINESS that's what everyone always wants right?

but it turns out, in every family there is certainly a problem.

Well mine, it seem so perfect, so happy but hey it's just a facade.

HOW I WISH THE COMPLAINS WOULD GO AWAY.

HOW I WISH I HEAR SOMETHING NEW AND HAPPY EVERYDAY.

HOW I WISH NEW PROBLEMS DON'T ARISE TO MAKE THINGS WORSE.

but sadly, this is life... i shall look upon it positively and make a change in my lifestyle, my attitude.

2009-06-07T20:29:00.000+08:00

MORE PHOTOS(:

DAISO OUTING(:

HAHA! EATING CHICKEN RICE(:
GEEKS ON THE LOOSE AT THE COFFE SHOP!
GEEK TRYING TO BE COOL xD

BABY UNGLAMPHOTOS(: :found it at grandma's house

blowing bubble fail....

cannot eat properly

AND CONSTIPATED FACE:D

2009-06-07T19:21:00.000+08:00

WENT TO DREAM OASIS YESTERDAY(:

The performance was superb man!
no wonder they achieve such great results!
THANKS GUYS FOR THE WONDERFUL PERFORMANCE:D

photos taken yesterday by my phone:
ps:will get the rest from gladys B)

ZELIA LOVES GLADYS SEAH FANG XIANG!

THE MIRROR DIRTY):

SERIOUS V.S FUN:D

UNGLAM-NESS

THANKS WAI FOR HELPING ME DO MY HAIR:D AND YES GLADYS YOU ARE A GREAT PHOTOGRAPHER...

PRETTY MS LIM(:

MS TAN : KINDDA LOOK LIKE DORAMON NOW...xD

MS AUD LEE(:

2009-05-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

IF ONLY EVERYDAY THERE IS A TREE OUTSIDE MY HOUSE TO CLIMB ):

LIFE WOULD SEEM LESS STRESSFUL...

swans are damm pretty:D

2009-05-13T16:26:00.000+08:00

LORD,

Grant me the serenity to accept things i cannot change,

Courage to change the things that i can

and

Wisdom to know the difference.

Prelims 1A over.....

worked my ass off with no results

that sucked

but i must continue(:

2009-03-08T20:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAN:D

Laura and i went to jurong point yesterday and got a specialised cake for xian(:

cake shop's name(:

FAMILY GATHERING:D

In the night, i went for family gathering. had fun with the youngest cousin:D Irresistibly cute B)

2009-03-03T21:04:00.000+08:00

PHOTO UPDATES:D

ADAMKHOO'S WORKSHOP

ME AND FIENA

WAIWAI AND ME(:

GREEN MONSTER WITH ME(:

SHAIFUL NOT MANLY LOOK....

SENTOSA TRIP~

BEL AND ME(:
REFLECTIONS OF MIRROR(:

BEL WITH BALL?

ME WITH BALL?

MINGHAO AND ME B)

SISTER [AARON] AND ME.. HAHA!!!!

2009-03-02T21:51:00.000+08:00

After sending laura home today, i went back to my condo and sat at the wooden benches beside the pond and many thought flooded into my head. I realised that my whole life has been filled with happiness yet with hell loads of regrets. Sitting there, i thought about my life, since young i started out as someone promising. I know it myself i would be an achiever one day. But as years pass i realised that i took everything for granted. Not cherishing what i have with me but just being greedy and want more. I lived and grow up in such a good environment yet till now i haven't achieved something my parents or even myself can be proud of. Why had i been so REBELLIOUS? why i have such cocked up ATTITUDE? why did i get myself in so much crap? Yet right now i still don't feel the need of wanting more for myself. Would i be able to finally be an achiever after 'o' levels? i guess i really have to find a goal i really want and work hard for it. I don't want another regret in my life. I want to take charge of my life and do something about it

Went home and picked up a book that my brother bought from his friend today. It was titled' best of humor' As i read on i realised many of the jokes are about life after marriage. It seems like both spouses are unhappy with each other and would not want to be together after marriage. Mom walked in and told me something, something i wouldn't want to mention. But right now in this pose i feel that that book depicts a scene so much like my family. I mean seriously i can't help but think why is this happening? Are guys really bastards?[not being a sexist] I really envy family's with strong bonds. Afterall everyone wants a happy family right? Why are human so greedy? I love them very much and i hope things will not turn for the worse. Love you mummy and daddy.

2009-02-26T17:52:00.000+08:00

ATTENDED ADAM KHOO'S WORKSHOP and it officially ended yesterday.

i felt overall it was great, studying methods like speed reading, memory works and more it was certainly beneficial. They had great phases in it. And though the course i decided to be a winner to prove it to those pure science kids that look down on aesthetic that WE ARE NOT DUMB AND WE CAN ALSO ACHIEVE WHAT THEY THINK WE CANNOT!

THE COURSE MAKE ME REALISE ONE THING. and ms YONG is right. why is it on recently then i realised that my parents have done so much for me be it scolding or encouragement is because the love me. SHOULDN'T I KNOW IT SINCE LIKE THE DAY I WAS BORN? I was filled with guilt, being rude to them, made use of them at times, lied to them, taking them for granted. But now i want to change it all. Yesterday closing ceremony, i made sure i was the 1st to go up the stage to thank my mom. And i did it i was THE 1ST! even though i started crying before i even talked and my voice was shaky i told my mum this" MUMMY THANKYOU FOR CHANGING YOUR MINDSET AND THINKING, GIVING ME MY FREEDOM, BELIEVING IN ME, TRYING TO UNDERSTAND ME. I HAVE SHOWN YOU THAT MY GRADES HAVE BEEN GOOD WHEN I WAS IN P1 BUT IT DROPPED AT P6. SEC 1 I TOLD YOU AGAIN I WOULD DO WELL I DID IT BUT BY THE END OF SEC 3 EVERYTHING DIPPED. I WILL TRY MY BEST THIS TIME. I AM NOT ASHAMED OF BEING WITH YOU. I LOVE YOU MUMMY."

i wondered how long i have not said these 3 words to my mom for how long and yesterday i finally said it GAVE HER A HUG though she didn't have much reaction but i know she knows what i mean. MUMMY I 4 GET TO SAY THIS: "YOUR A GREAT MOM AND I WILL EARN MONEY FOR YOU TILL YOU LEAVE ME SINCE YOU LOVE MONEY."

TO DADDY:" I WILL STUDY CAUSE I DO, THANKS FOR WORKING SO HARD FOR THE FAMILY. I LOVE YOU(:

2009-02-26T17:32:00.000+08:00

ON MON I PLAYED MY LAST GAME

not as good as what i have expected but i know that i went out and gave it my all so i will leave with no regrets.

TO MY TEAM:

Thanks for the great games this whole season. We may have regrets, laughter,pressure but we went though all that together. SO SMILE CAUSE YOU PEOPLE HAVE DONE WELL(: GREAT SEASON though we still haven't got our top 4.

TO MY SEC 4 TEAMMIES:

Faridah, it felt great to be able to play the last game with you! takecare and play more when your leg heals:D.

Gladys, deary GREAT IMPROVEMENT! don't worry if you think your stilll not there yet. try harder(: afterall you did went forward.

Dory, innocent and makes my blood boils at times but still great job this season!

Zhenyan, YAMYAM choinging all the way for 40 mins every game. GOOD JOB!(:

Ummi, horny ass! senior senior le! JIAYOU! 100% underbaskets!

Diyanah, tall mouse! rise to the top and never let the spirit die! jiayou!

TO MY JUNIORS:

Peng, captain i believe you can lead the team to greater heights, be brave and JIAYOU!

Jasmine, don't give up! keep pushing and changing i'm sure you willl achieve your desired result(:

June, the ever happy stick, thanks for the hard work this season, Jiayou! Librarian, though you didn't play must this season due to unseen reasons, JIAYOU NEXT YEAR OK!(:

Elayne, all the way! JIAYOU MANS! don't give up believe in yourself.

JIAYOU NEXT YEAR TEAM! SAME GOAL AS ALWAYS!:D

2009-02-20T21:11:00.000+08:00

FINALLY COMMON TEST ARE OVER!

MY GOD FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S OVER!

coursework it's your turn!

2009-02-14T21:51:00.000+08:00

OLOGY

**********FOODOLOGY***************

What is your salad dressing of choice?

TARTAR SAUCE:D

What is your favourite sit-down restaurant?

JACK'S PLACE(:

What food could you eat for 2 weeks straight and not get sick of it?

CHICKEN RICE AND SUSHI B)

What are your pizza toppings of choice?

HAWAIIAN TOPPINGS:D

What do you like to put on your toast?

BUTTER AND SUGAR

**********TECHNOLOGY***************

How many television sets are in your house?

What colour cell phone do you have?

NAVY BLUE, LOOKS LIKE BLACK THOUGH

***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed?

LEFT-HANDED

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?

TEETH

What is the last heavy item you lifted?

GIFT HAMPER

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?

NOPE:D

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?

WHO WOULD'NT?

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?

I'M HAPPY WITH MY NAME(: BUT MAYBE JUST THE CHINESE CHARACTERS.

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?

IF I REALLY NEED THE MONEY

************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own?

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?

NOPE NONE

Last person you talked to?

MOM(:

Last person you hugged?

GLADYS :DD

**************FAVOURITOLOGY****************

Season?

AUTUM

Holiday?

JAPAN, HONGKONG,ROME, PARIS,NEWYORK

Day of the week?

FRIDAY

Month?

JUNE

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

Missing someone?

I GUESS SO

Mood?

STRESSED

What are you listening to?

RIGHT HERE BY BRANDY

Watching?

THE NANNY(S4)

Worrying about?

ART O LEVELS AND COMMON TEST [i think i will flunk): don't really have the time to study]

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

First place you went this morning?

TUITION AT MRS LIM'S HOUSE

What was the last movie you saw?

LOVE MATTERS

Do you smile often?

YEA, I DO

*********QUESTIONS*********

1) Do you always answer your phone?

NOT REALLY

2) It's four in the morning and you get a text message. who would it be?

I HAVE NO IDEA. BUT I THINK I WILL KILL THAT PERSON!

3) If you could change your eye color, what would it be?

YELLOW:D, LOL NO, I THINK HAZEL IS A BETTER ALTERNATIVE!:D

4) What flavour do you add to your drink at Sonic?

HMM NO IDEA. HAVEN'T BEEN THERE

BUT WHERE THE HELL IS THAT?!

5) Do you own a digital camera?

SPOILED IT

6) Have you ever had a pet fish?

YUPPS.

7) Favourite Christmas song?

I DON'T KNOW THE TITLE D:

8) What's on your wish list for your birthday?

NEW I-POD NANO[YELLOW]

9) Can you do push ups?

YESYES! I CAN!

10) Can you do a chin up?

ONCE I GUESS

11) Does the future make you more nervous or excited?

EXCITED

12) Do you have any saved texts?

I DO HAVE

13) Ever been in a car wreck?

NOPE. JUST BUMPS

14) Do you have an accent?

EH... SINGLISH?

15) What is the last song to make you cry?

RIGHT HERE BY BRANDY TOO

16) Plans tonight?

STAYING UP TILL I WISH GLADYS HAPPY BIRTHDAY:D

17) Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?

CERTAINLY!=.-

18) Name 3 things you bought in the last week?

DOMO TOY!,PANDA NOTEBOOK, EZ-LINK CARD STICKER

19) Have you ever been given roses?

YEA

20) Current worry?

MY O LEVELS

21) Current hate right now?

MY MOM DROPPED MY COLOUR PENCILS): THE LEADS BROKE):

22) Met someone who changed your life?

NOT YET

23) How did you bring in the New Year?

A BETTER PERSON FOR MYSELF AND EVERYONE

24) What song represents you?

DUNNO

25) Name three people who might complete this.

NONE. NONE OF THEM IS AS LAME AS ME!:D

26) What were you doing at 12am last night?

SLEEPING! TOO TIRED!

27) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?

CAN I EAT MY KUAY CHAP NOW?

2009-02-01T21:53:00.000+08:00

TOMORROW IS NOT JUST ANOTHER MATCH, IT'S A CRUCIAL MATCH.
SO ALL THE BEST TO MY TEAMMIES AND LET'S FIGHT HARD AND GET WHAT WE DESERVE! JIAYOUs! NEVER GIVE UP!

2009-01-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR B)

May everyone's newyear's resolution come true and well wishes from me to you(:

enjoy hongbao collecting:D

To my school mates, all the best! It is our last year and time to chiong for 'o' levels(:

To my clique, i hope to bring laughter to all of you this year and i'll always be here and may we spend the best last year in secondary school this year

To my best bud Alyssa, hey i hope that the past tough year have past and i've learn to treasure our friendship more and let us start anew all over again

To my teamates, let bygones be bygones, whatever grudges, conflict, bitching let's put aside.

All i know is that we all want that the most and this is the last year for me so i will play my best and let's win this TOP 4 TOGETHER YEA?

:D
To coach, it has been a long year and thanks for being a great coach for bringing and teaching us to where we are now. You may think you did not do much but you have indeed laft an IMPACT IN MY LIFE

To my teachers, the guidance, care,teachings,kindness and more. Is greatly appreciated.

2009-01-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

OUR NEWLY ELECTED PRESIDENT! CHUA YIYING!

FILLED WITH BOBBA-NESS xD AND SOMEWHAT LIKE PARIS HILTON!

OK LA! wai wai, ying and me went shopping on newyear eve eve.

[ Belicia was sick): ]

turned out well, ying got her dress, i got my hat, wai got her hair extentions, but i haven got my wallet! which was the whole point why i went shopping! but who cares!:D had damm loads of fun hearing about ying's dream of 'WHAT WILL IT BE LIKE IF I AM THE PRESIDENT OF SINGAPORE(:'

2009-01-25T23:24:00.000+08:00

BASKETBALL GATHERING B)

NEWYEAR EVE EVE EVE(:

YAY! GROUP PHOTO:D [Gladys the photographer and dear jasmine in malaysia): ]
WE COULDN'T RESIST IT, DIE DIE ALSO MUST TAKE AN UNGLAM PHOTO:D

NICE PHOTO EH..... OUR TEACHERS!

IT WAS COLD SO I SLID MY HANDS INTO THE JERSEY AND I ENDED LOOKING LIKE A MENTAL RETARDED PATIENT xD
[kindda unglam too huh?]:DDDDDDDD

OUR NEW YEAR CAKE :D, THERE WAS MORE FOOD LIKE YU SHENG FROM SAKAE, CURRYCHICKEN IN BUN?, PIZZA, FRIED RICE AND I 4GOT! SO YEA [fattening!]

2009-01-18T20:44:00.000+08:00

THANKS TO ALL MY FRIENDS OUT THERE WHO PUT IN AN EFFORT TO MAKE THAT DAY GREAT: MY BIRTHDAY

-THE HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIGN BEHIND ME though i ruined

-THE BRA AND GRANDMA'S UNDIES SCARE

-THE LOUD BIRTHDAY SONG IN THE CANTEEN

-RAMEN CAKE AFTER TRAINING

-CREAM FIGHT

-WATER SPLASHING

-BIRTHDAY WISHES

-PRESENTS

THANKS:D

and to my teammies let's work hard for that dream we all aimed for from the beginning; TOP 4.

let's put aside every bad past, moods and whatever,

and GET IT!:D

2009-01-12T19:48:00.000+08:00

FEELING THE STRESS!!!!!!!!!:@

being a sec 4 is so not easy!): It's like 2 weeks in school and i feel as if i'm having a hectic lifestyle.

Homeworks increase day by day and before a know it common test is coming! then mid-years! prelims! and O LEVELS):

SAT THROUGH THE RELEASE OF O LEVELS FOR 2008 TODAY

felt damm bad. It's like this year is our turn and i'm beginning to doubt whether i can even hit a 10): ESPECIALLY THE ART RESULTS! MY HEART TOTALLY SANK LA!): like only 1 to 2 distinctions.... this year is going to be worse man! OMG! SOMEONE TEACH ME TO BE POSITIVE!

PS: SERIOUSLY FACEBOOK IS TOUGH TO USE):

SOMEONE TEACH ME HOW TO USE IT TOO!!!!!!

2009-01-01T18:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!:D

2009 is going to be a great year, yet tough year

well all the best to everybody out there(:

RESOLUTIONS FOR THIS YEAR[to remind myself]

1. MUG REAL HARD FOR O LEVELS

2. PLAY AT MY PEAK FOR WEST ZONE THIS YEAR

3. SPEND MORE TIME WITH DEAR FRIENDS

4. REMEMBER EVERY IMPORTANT EVENT AND CELEBRATE

5. KEEP MY ROOM CLEAN!

6. DO NOT BE DISTRACTED*winks*

7. LEARN TO LOVE AND CARE FOR EVERYONE AND MYSELF(:

8. HOW TO FALL DOWN PROPERLY:D

9. TRY NOT TO BITE NAILS!

10.MAKE BETTER DECISIONS

_________________________________________________________________

ANYWAYS, went to watch bedtime stories. DAMM FREAKING GOOD! It is like better than YESMAN. so yea watch this!:D [ps:this time i sat beside someone that fell asleep and was snoring=.-, so my verdict is i shall sit in the middle of 2 friends:@ cause i'm freaking SUAY!

But to think of it, there are loads of movies that are coming up and all look great. SO START SAVING UP!:D

2008-12-28T21:46:00.000+08:00

YES MAN!:D

Alyssa and i went to westmall to watch YES MAN(: Poh's bro said that we would be laughing more than half the movie, IF we get the jokes, but it didn't really happened to me):

It is funny, but not as funny as to what i have expected. But overall, i would give it a 3 out of 5stars rating:D SO SAY YES TO YES MAN:DDDDDDDDDDD

oh ya! To add on, it was quite a horrible experience in the cinema theatre!): the man that was sitting next to me was totally URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He stinks,he is irritating and loads more. i was like sitting extremely close to alyssa la.): like lesbian xD haha! so by the next movie that i am going to watch i will pray hard i'm sitting to someone that does not irritate me(: [OH NO I SOUND LIKE A BIMBO!:O]

2008-12-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

HOHO! MERRY CHRISTMAS. EVERYONE(:

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE! B)

I'm back!:D not lazy anymore....

CHRISTMAS EVE

B'DIVISION GIRLS, COACH AND WEIYAO had a barbecue party at my condo to celebrate christmas. It was kindda weird cause it was in the afternoon but still it is the fun and being together that matters. :D it was a rough start we had sort of a time constrain): like from 1 to 3pm only. but not bad we only took half an hour to get the fire burning(: [forall girls] BUT IN THE END WE COOKED FAST ATE FAST:D and they left loads of leftovers(: Before we end everything we gathered for presents exchange, i got a cup from faridah(: IT IS PRETTY THANKS:D we all got a card from coach too(: thanks. thanks to weiyao for the candycanes and chocolates 8) TO ALL TEAM MATES THANKS FOR THE WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS EVE(:[ i dunn really have the pictures now so i'll post them at a later post]

In the night, i went out with alyssa. We went to anchorpoint to buy presents ikea for hotdogs then tiong baru plaza to look around. At around 8 we went to Alysssa's uncle's house for dinner at yishun(: Her uncle is a great cook man:D we had HUNGARIAN FOOD(: something like beef stew but less diluted, we ate it with rice. IT WAS GREAT! At around 11 we return to my home [ she had a sleepover(:] and after bathing straight to bed we were to tired. But she left me guilty! I forgot to provide her with blanket making her uncomfortable. I'M SO SORRY!):

AT IKEA HAVING HOTDOGS:D

AT THE BUS STOP WAITING FOR BUS

SHE TRIES TO BE A COOK, BUT FAIL! xD

CHRISTMAS TODAY!!!!!!!:D
Went out with mom and alyssa to bugis(: MOM went to pray at the temple and we went shopping. DAMMED I FOUND A DRESS! but it was too loose on me and there was no other sizes! it was so pretty): OMG i sound like a bimbo, BUT WHO CARES:D

In the night, Alyssa and me went to her uncle's house to eat again(: This time we had SPAGHETTI:D i forgot it's name xD but it was great. We also dipped our leg in the pool(:

well i look forward to tmmr after training going to wai's house for studying session. it's been a long time since i studied xD

AT BUSTOP WAITING FOR BUS AGAIN TOO BORED xD

PS: we are of same height.....

BUT NOW WE ARE NOT!:D MUAHAHAHAHA! OK LAME SO INSULTING xD

HER INDIVIDUAL PHOTO:D

MY INDIVIDUAL PHOTO(:

OUR DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO PHOTO B)

BTW(: im back from GENTING:D it was loads of fun. I went with my family and a few relatives. It was great WITH THE FREE AIRCON AT ALL TIMES, MY FAVOURITE DABAO AND CRAZY RIDES. i have a record this year:D i went up and down SPACESHOT 8times(: 5times on the rollercoaster:D WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE:D I GUESS I'M GOING THERE AGAIN NXT YEAR:D

2008-12-06T17:07:00.001+08:00

DAMMED MY BLOG IS DEAD SO DEAD CAUSE I'M REALLY LAZY TO TYPE... SO TILL NXT TIME WHEN I'M NOT LAZY ANYMORE xD

2008-11-22T19:51:00.000+08:00

NOTHING TO EXPRESS RECENTLY(:
SO ALL IS WELL(:
LESSER TIME FOR COMPUTER BECAUSE MORE TIME OR TRAININGS(:
JIAYOU!:D

2008-11-15T20:08:00.000+08:00

EMOTIONS?

TO CRY? TO BE ANGRY? TO BE HAPPY? TO ACT LIKE NOTHING?

I DUNNO!

I DON'T WANT TO TAKE THAT INITIATIVE...):

it's so hard being a friend of yours

but i guess i still have to be the one who take the SECOND STEP

IT'S MEANT TO BE? NO! WE MUST FIGHT HARDER FOR A BETTER TEAM(:

2008-11-09T16:52:00.000+08:00

I REALLY WANT TO BOBBA ABOUT ____________________!!!!!!!!!!!!

but some things just can't be said.....

YESTERDAY AN-NE AND I WENT TO QUEENSWAY:D

our old basketball shoe is so stinky, friction-less, so holey and we are to lazy to wash it. WE WENT TO BUY A NEW PAIR OF SHOES:D AND I WANT TO SAY SOMETHING! WHY IS THE ADDIDAS HIGH-CUTS ALL SO UGLY! In the end i have to buy this high-cut version of ah-ne's low-cut shoe. It's damm..... URGH! WTH! BLUE! I HATE NAVY BLUE! Luckily i was able to change the colour of the stripes but it still looks weird! If not for my ankle i so would have got that low-cut one! nvm after season i'm gonna get a nice low-cut shoe! Actually i have pictures to show you how not-pretty it is but the stupid com refuse to upload....i shall live with that shoe! ARGHHHHHH!

2008-11-05T20:25:00.000+08:00

HAVING DONE LOADS OF THINKING AFTER THAT STUPID FAMILY GATHERING....
how do i say.... no matter how much people blames me for the wrong reasons or misunderstanding ican't seems to stand up for myself, it's like just taking in all the blame, no matter how much i explain they don't seem to believe, because of trust... so i gave up explaining and learn to take it in. Just be like the smiley in the picture no matter how unhappy the world is I WILL AND CAN BE THE HAPPIEST OF THEM ALL(:

comes to family gathering..... i really envy those who have a close and bonded relatives. I mean they are understanding. At least these people do not have relatives trying to win each other but help each other instead. They don't try to compare their kid's result, height and other minor stuff instead they encourage the child and niece/nephew. They don't critisize you and talk bad behind your back but they tell you what is wrong and they accept you for who you are. IREALLY ENVY THIS SORT OF FAMILIES. Because my relatives really lack these. They don't have to be perfect but at least be reasonable and understanding right?

They should stop judging others but take a look at themselves. seriously!

ok i have a random thing to say!

ME AND MY BROTHER SERIOUSLY DON'T LOOK ALIKE!
lol good way to end a emo speech*winks*

2008-11-05T19:30:00.000+08:00

RECENT PICTURES(:

GROUP PHOTO(:

ANOTHER ONE BUT WEIRD......xD

LAURA HID... BUT WE STILL TOOK HER PICTURE(:

WE TOOK IT SECRETLY...... :X

GLADYS.ME.LAURA:D

THEN WE PLAYED WITH HAIR(:

FOUND A REAL SPECIAL ROOM WITH SPECIAL TOILET BOWLS.

ONE IS HUGE ANOTHER IS TINY:D

THEN WE WENT TO THE TOILET. AND TOOK AN UNGLAM PHOTO(:

DURING THE ELDDS CONCERT

GROUP PHOTO(:

I REALISED I'M KINDDA TALL!:D
just joking!

2008-10-27T17:50:00.000+08:00

WATCHED HIGHSCHOOL MUSICAL 3 TODAY(: with nene and amao(:

well still as interesting as before, the graphics, the songs, but the plot seems to always be the same.

Sharpey will always try to break troy and gabriella but in the end they still made up...=.- come to think of it... kindda boring... But overall still watchable(:

After the movie, i went home and started to pack my room. All for the sake of not getting lesser pocket money... while all the time i was stuck in the room for the past hours. Only had time to blog and eat now. The problem is i only finished packing 4 huge cupboards and i'm already exhausted..... oh well i didn't realise i have so much things to throw away... wait this actually shows that my room is like a garbage dump... haha! :x

Another thing it seems that the news only reached me yesterday from Belicia. Actually i was kindda dissapointed... cause i thought i would hear it from you personally. But nah now it's alright i guess you would think that i will bombard you with questions and naggings then you will get pissed of and bla bla bla. But no matter what i do respect your choice and wish you all the best for next year(:

BUT SERIOUSLY I'M NOT ACTUALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO NEXT YEAR EVEN THOUGH I KNOW AFTER THE O'S I'M FREE. BUT SOME THINGS IS NO LONGER THE SAME AND IT IS SAD TO THINK ABOUT IT.

2008-10-24T23:49:00.000+08:00

zzzzz..... i feel damm pissed. IT ABOUT THE WHOLE TRUSTING THING AGAIN. I just don't know i know that i have improved but mom think i didn't because my other relatively well subjects score was lower... i guess it's because of mistakes, i've not done as well as expected for those subjects and pulled down my overall marks.... thats like sad. So it made my improve subject looks useless..

But another thing is they just don't trust that i actually study. I told them i did, it is only they didn't see. Feeling damm upset... i'm starting to study and they don't trust me. Damm it's like so difficult. Nvm i shall prove that i really studied by CA1.

LUCKILY, she promsed to let me play ball anytime i want till march:D but now another problem arises!): have to try to convince my dad! If not my mom is gonna side him as well): JIAYOU!

TOMMORROW FRIENDLY WITH ANGLICAN! JIAYOUs WE CAN DO IT!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

DailyPsalm: For you, O God,have tested us; You have refined us as silver is refined. -Psalm 66:10 [this is like so true..]

2008-10-22T20:40:00.000+08:00

OK HAVE NOT BEEN BLOGGING FOR A REAL.REAL.REAL LONG TIME

Because during the holidays i may go bonkers.... actually i don't even know whether it is considered as holidays. With the start of sec 4 classes. Seeing the teachers over and over again. Learning new stuff. Damm even if it is so important, i still feel like resting for another week before all the classes start. And with all the stress coming from everywhere BECAUSE NEXT YEAR IS THE FREAKING O LEVELS! Sometimes it is good to NOT GROW UP. But haha what a fantasy.

lol ok another thing! I am like damm pissed of with some people in this world. I mean they want to do bad stuff they pull another in easily by influencing and get away scot free. And nobody dare to oppose. Afterall, who want to invite trouble for themselves. JUST TO THOSE PEOPLE! GET A LIFE AND STOP BEING SO CHILDISH! :@

2008-10-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TMMR IS THE DAMM LAST PAPER!

AN HOUR PLUS AND I'M OUT OF THERE! TO MY FREEDOM!:D

lol! ok! today had AMATHS paper and i know it's a goner. Thanks to the stupid fever i had yesterday. It was damm awful la like i could not even concentrate at all, damm the headaches!

came out of the hall, damm dissapointing it's like i felt that i would not be able to keep my AMATHS anymore and it is not i cannot do but could not think. damm sad

but nvm went for training anyways, it was raining so we had meeting with coachy. At first when i went running it was horrible man. I felt damm terrible, had difficulty breathing, dizzy spells and was coughing away. But surprisingly i felt better later. So i recommend that if your feeling unwell not really tired you should try exercising(: It feels good.

well just promised laura something just now. Just hope that you would be able to take in what i'm going to say. Although it would be like akward afterall those things have happened. But i seriously think even if it is going to anger you/shock you or other emotions but i feel that i should say because i want you back as my friend. So i will pray hard that you would take in what i would say.

well checked friendster today my daily psalm:

... let all those rejoice who put their trust in You; let them ever shout for joy, because you defend them; let those also who love Your name be joyful in You.

- Psalm 5:11

really meaningful really appriciate these ppl in my life. THANKYOU(:

2008-10-07T17:00:00.000+08:00

DAMM STRESS DUE TO EXAMS

+ ALL THE DISTRACTIONS

THAT IS GOING ON IN MY HEAD...

=BLOCKED RETARDED TRYING TO STUDY

The happy DISTRACTIONS:]
the sad DISTRACTIONS
ok la mostly sad ones
it's just so DISTRACTING! DAMM!
BUT NVM ON THE HAPPY SIDE.....
yay! finally tried the hall exam treatment yesterday(:
kindda fun loved it!:D
better than having tests in the classroom(:
COMPLETE MORE THAN HALF THE PAPERS DAMM HAPPY!
LEFT WITH FOUR JIAYOU!:D

PICTURES OF THE PAST DAYS:

BOUGHT COOKIE MONSTER TODAY(: HUNG IT ON MY HANDPHONE. BEL SAYS SHE IS GOING TO BUY ELMO(:
ATE WAI'S WAIWAI BEEHOOON DURING ONE OF THE WEEKENDS(:
WAI'S NEW PIG AND SHE SAID IT LOOKED LIKE ME:[ BUT AT LEAST IT IS SMILING(:

2008-10-01T18:52:00.000+08:00

DISSAPOINTMENT

is all i have to say.....

2008-09-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

AFTER THE ENGLISH EXAMS-totally screwed the paper damm fustrated!

really in the bad mood so wai,bel and i went to the libary to slack and i end up taking loads of pictures.........

MY BRICK AND LIGHTBULB EMOING AT A CORNER

BEAN BEAR LOVES TO SLACK

BEAN BEAR LOVES ICE-LEMON TEA

BEAN BEAR LOVES STANDING UNDER THE TREE!

I FOUND A NEW SPECIES A PINK ZEBRA!

TELL YOU WHAT..... PEA'S DO ACT CUTE:

THEY ALSO HAVE FAMILIES AND FRIENDS:

CUTE PICTURES OF PANDAS:D

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I'M EMO.... DAMM... taking pictures of stuppid stuff. tell you bout my emo stuff tmmr:]

2008-09-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO DEDICATE THIS SONG

WHEN YOU BELIEVE(:

[one of my blog song] TO...

MY TEAMMIES

WE ARE TRAINING TILL WE DIE AFTER EXAMS.TO BE FIT, FAST ,DILIGENT AND SKILLFUL. WE CANNOT AFFORD ANY FOUL OUTS, LAZYNESS, AND TOO SLOW TO STOP US FROM WINNING!:] HAI AND WE CAN ONLY PLAY MAN TO MAN! SO CHIONG BA PPL! SO I WOULD DEDICATE THIS SONG TO TEAMMIES TO JIAYOU TOGETHER AND NEVER GIVE UP AS LONG AS WE BELIEVE WE CAN DO IT(:

MY FRIENDS

FOLLOW YOUR HEARTS AND NEVER GIVE UP ON LIFE. DO WHAT YOU LIKE AND BELIEVE IN YOURSELF(:

2008-09-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

LOL! GOT NOTHING TO SHARE SO I DECIDED TO SHARE ABOUT MY TUITION DAY:D

OK LA. Actually it is nothing it is just that my teacher got back from overseas so she bought us snacks:]

IT IS THE SHAPE OF A JI-PUN MAN AND WOMAN!:DDDDD

[They looked real fake though xD]

BUT... in the end i ate it up and killed it:D

I KILLED A JI-PUN KIA!:x

LOL! THE FAKE MAN AND WOMAN(:
YOU SEE.... I ATE IT AND TORE IT'S HAND:D

OK ANOTHER THING I VISITED YANRONG'S FRIENDSTER AND JUST FOUND OUT I HAD UNGLAM PICTURES IN HER FRIENDSTER :O

AND IT WAS TAKEN LIKE DURING THE JUNE HOLIDAYS THE MT API TRIP:D

ME SUCKING THE CHICKEN
ME TRYING TO ACT TALL
AND MY FUGGING UGLY UNGLAM FACE O.O

AND I HAVE SOMETHING TO ANNOUNCE!

HAPPY ONE MONTH TO FIENA GIRLFRIEND!:D
phew lucky she reminded me if not i would have forgotten :x
[ ps: not a lesbian. lac ok(: ]

2008-09-25T16:44:00.000+08:00

WENT TO CHINNATOWN WITH BELICIA(:
just went all the way there to take some inspirational photo's for art... dang
but ps to belicia must make her go all the way there to take a few photos
but in the end after taking photo's we went shopping xD
THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY WAS DAMM SHIOK!:DDDDD
THERE WERE LOADS OF HOT GUYS AND WE GOT FILMED AND LOADS OF FUNNY PPL DAMM FUN(:

ON THE BUS BACK HOME WE SANG AND THOUGHT OF A DUCKY SONG FOR WAI~(: AND REALISE THAT THE PPL STUFFED TISSUE INTO THE AIR-CON BECAUSE IT WAS TOO COLD AND THEY SLEPT LIKE PIGS :X DAMM UNGLAM!

WENT TO SHAIFUL'S FRIENDSTER AND SAW THIS AND I TRIED I OUT WITH MY NAME DAMM DISGUSTING!O.O

THE PREPARATION FOR ART IS KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-22T21:53:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY

Went studying with ALYSSA and EUNICE. Before that i went to MosBurger for lunch and was super satisfied by the terriyaki chicken burger and the large milk teeeeeeeaaaaaa!:D

MY WONDERFUL SET-MEAL:]
MY HAVEN'T STIRRED MILK TEA:D

Then we headed to the swimming pool to study. But halfway, it was too hot so we settled in the cafe to study Eunice ordered her nuggets with fries and we all started studying. I was so stressed up with art and Amaths man! Later Me and Alyssa had dinner in the cafe and wasn't very hungry so just had a small bowl of spagetti(: Worse of is that they tought i would turn aneroxic cause i'm either eating lesser for dinner, no mood for dinner OR don't eat dinner + workout and running loads. Come on i've got fats man no worries. Plenty to shed:D

BEFORE WE GO HOME: PHOTOS AGAIN!:D

ALYSSA, EUNICE AND ME!:P

OBVIOUSLY, WE CAN NEVER NOT HAVE A STUPID PHOTO:D

2008-09-19T21:25:00.005+08:00

THIS IS MY LONG LONG POST! :DDDDD

SO YEA! I have not been able to go online for a long time so this is a one shot post :D damm long for like more than two week! :o

well nxt few weeks would not be better too....exams =.=

so spamming blogging again :D

but today is a day i would say really a taste of what i have experience before. Me and fary were talking about our fears of becoming a lesbian. Because seriously guys are sucky. GOD AM I TURNING ANTI-GUYS?!o.o but damm it is really damm hard to really trust a guy i mean like they are like total losers! come on ewwww! Damm!

well for the matter today... the 'good';bad' news well i'm ok with it it just so LOL! like immuned as it happened so many times i no longer have to feel sad and angry just feel so LOL!

but one thing for sure i played basketball with cute guy today:D

i guess he is no better but just admiring the look man! :D

2008-09-19T21:25:00.004+08:00

TODAY'S REAL POST!!!!!!!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

FARY CUTE LOOK AND MY TONGUE =.=

NICE CLOSE UP [ACCIDENTAL]

A HIDDEN SMILE

OTHER PEOPLE!:DD

ALOY!

STUPID CHOON YONG THAT RUINED OUR PICTURE!

LOL! THE 'CUTE' PEOPLE

WEIHONG, FARY AND ME!

2008-09-19T21:25:00.003+08:00

CELERBRATION OF MID-AUTUMN IN MY CONDO!:D

ME AND POH CAMWHORE SESSION :]

HUH?O.O
EMO OR HAPPY? :O

INDIVIDUAL POUTING

POUT!:D

POUT AGAIN

THE CAMWHORE DOG....=.=

CUTE MUFFY :D

MUFFY DON'T KNOW HOW TO SIT SO LIE:D

MUFFY LOVES BITING HIS LEG

2008-09-19T21:25:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL'S MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL

PREPARATION:]

TRYING TO ACT BENG BUT UM-CHIO xD

THE SERIES OF SINGLE UNGLAMNESS:]

FARY..

GLADYS...

AND ME!

AND ME AGAINAND GLADYS...

SERIES OF TOGETHERNESS UNGLAM

AUNTIE POST...
PYRAMID UNGLAMNESS
ME AND MY HAND
WE AND OUR HAND..

NICE PICTURES

TWIST ON THE TROLLEYTRYING TO BE BENG ON TROLLEYBIMBO ON THE TROLLEY

MY YELLOW BALLOON STOLEN BY ZUL IN THE END :[
WHOOO! I'M THE SLEEPING BUDDHA :X
PREPARING......

TOO BORED

NO MORE PICTURES CAUSE TOO BUSY BUT EVERYTHING WENT WELL :D

2008-09-19T21:25:00.001+08:00

THE DAY OF FATNESS!:D

HAD POSH BROWNIES AND PIG CANDIES:]

ONE OF MY FAVOURITES:] BUT I GAVE IT TO AHNE FOR HER TO ENJOY:D
THE MARSHMELLOW ONE! I HAD IT MYSELF :]
AND THE PIG CANDY FROM MARKS AND SPENCER(:

SO GONNA BUY A MIXED PACK:D

2008-09-19T21:25:00.000+08:00

SENTOSA TRIP

THAT IS LIKE TWO WEEKS AGO???????

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

FINALLY GET TO POST:]

AN ACCIDENTAL PHOTO BY LAURA THAT MADE ME AND WAI SUPER SKINNY! O.O
OUR CUTE WAIWAI~:]
ME AND LAURA:P
BELICIA STARING AT WHAT? OBVIOUSLY HOPING SHAWN WILL POP OUT FROM THE SEA!!!!!!!!!:O

LAURA WAS SMELLIBG MY NICE HAIR BUT IT TURNED OUT! :O I LOOKED LIKE A GUY WITH LONG HAIR TRYING TO KISS HER =.=

FINAL PHOTO OF THAT DAY:D

ME, WAI AND YING:]